Monday, October 1, 2007

What PMS really stands for.....

I found out what PMS really should stand for.

Peanut M&MS

The end of last week I was wondering why I wanted chocolate SO badly. I had resisted with all my might, only eating 4-5 chocolate yogurt-covered raisins. What I really wanted was chocolate-covered peanuts.

So, when I was in Walmart on Friday night, I saw the peanut M&Ms. Suddenly I realized why I felt like a chocolate-craving monster.

You guessed it. The three letters that strike terror into the hearts of men. And yes, I mean men.


So, I bought some. Yes, I've been eating healthfully. I figured that I could handle a treat, and I did pretty well. I chose dark chocolate peanut M&Ms. I figured that at least this way I would get some fiber, and the dark chocolate has antioxidants and I get satiated much faster by it than milk chocolate.

I opened the bag in the car and shared with the kids. Now, this was a family sized bag, so I wanted to make sure not to overdo it. If I had gotten a small bag, my kids would have had most of it and I didn't want to go home and eat everything in sight when what I really, really wanted was some chocolate. So, I ate about 1/2 cup of those things. A little too much, but it enabled me to resist my friend's best ever no-bake cookies at a girl's night later on that same night. I was pretty proud of myself. I listened to my body and was aware of every M&M I ate, and paid attention to when I was satisfied. I paid attention to the sensations and taste in my mouth, and for the first time I was satisfied with MUCH less than I used to be.

After that I went home and put up the bag. I had several more over the next couple of days, but no more than 5 or 7 at a time, maybe 2 or 3 times. I made sure to share with my family so I wasn't hoarding all of them. The kids were happy with how much they got. More than the couple here and there that they used to get. The scale hasn't gone up for me any more than usually does at this time of month, actually less.

Does this mean that I can have my monthly M&Ms and still lose weight? Maybe I can have my cake and eat it too! (Well, I'd prefer the M&Ms.) I hope so! Sure makes this lifestyle change a bit easier. I wish I'd had them around last night.

Being Sunday, I didn't eat much all day. We have church at 12:30, so we didn't get home until 4 and James was in charge of a multi-ward missionary fireside that the mission president was speaking at. So, I had to cook dinner and make a dessert for the fireside before we left at 6:30.

I made a whole wheat chocolate crazy cake with unbleached organic sugar. I didn't have chocolate chips to melt on the top like usual, but I found a bag of chocolate mint swirled chips left over from Christmas, so I used that. When it was melted and smoothed out it looked like milk chocolate, but smelled divine. We each tried a small piece before leaving.

The fireside was wonderful, the treats a big success, and there was only a few pieces of my cake left that I tried to give away as we were headed out the door. I succeeded in giving away a few.

I was so hungry when we left at 9:00 that it was a bad thing that the cake was on my lap on the way home. The pieces were cut very small, so I took off the chocolate topping on two but I ate 3 pieces. I was ashamed of myself. But that goes to show that you can't set yourself up for success if you're hungry and you have chocolate cake on your lap. I think I had enough of a calorie deficit from the rest of the day that it'll be ok. After all, it was whole wheat cake. However, I did learn a lesson. Put the cake in back of the van before leaving the parking lot if you're hungry, especially if you have PMS!

All in all, I've done much better this month than months past. So, instead of beating myself up for the mistakes I made, I'm cheering myself with how much I've accomplished! I still haven't seen the scale go down and stay down this past week, so I've been roughly the same weight for the past two weeks. However, yesterday morning James said that my skirt was fitting better and differently. It's the same skirt I wore to his parents' church two weeks ago. So something is going on with my body. Perhaps it's just shifting some muscle for fat, and I'll start seeing the numbers going down again soon, especially after "that time" comes and goes.

I didn't go to the gym this morning as I'm still pretty sore from my strength training workout on Saturday! That was a killer training. My shoulders, thighs, chest and bottom are still sore! I'm going to see if I can go tonight after FHE.

1 comment:

Betsy Love said...

At our house we call chocolate an herbal remedy. It's important to nurture yourself once a month (or as often as needed-in moderation of course.) If we don't take care of ourselves, we can't take car of others.